The tendency to exist in grey areas of relationships I thought was an inevitability.
Because the lust for
arctic methane release
energy transportation system
port state control confusion
33,000+ offshore drilling sites
freighters designed differently to cruise ships: they run much deeper in the water
high temps yielding high, unhealthy concentrations of ozone pollutants
plastics that leach endocrine disruptors that accumulate disproportionately in the bodies of girls and
women floating like confetti on the water, throughout the water column
dungeness crab unsafe to eat due to toxic algal bloom
the potential for “bycatch” too great to be ignored
Eating plastic can cause animals to feel full and not hungry even though they are not actually consuming food. In birds, it has been shown that ingestion of plastics can prevent migration, reproduction and eventually cause starvation and death. In turtles, plastic has been shown to block intestines and make the animals float so that they cannot dive for food.1
ANYTHING THAT WOULD SCOOP UP ALL THE PLASTIC POLLUTION WOULD ALSO SCOOP OUT THE PLANKTON, KILLING THE OCEAN DEAD
I was just getting used to bug bites all over me when the weather changed.
DREAM HARDER, my big brother told me, only I don’t have a brother; I have a loose uterus; I don’t; I have a mother, I’m sorry
I EXPERIENCE EVERYTHING IN A HEIGHTENED STATE
At the Social Security office on 9/11 – “Do you have any weapons?” – “Just a very small knife” – “That’s a weapon” – and they make me take it off my keychain and put it in the car but don’t notice the one in my bag.
1Plastics Are Forever, Algalita Marine Research Foundation.
ONLY MY AMBITION WILL KILL ME
like a landmine or landfill or something otherwise undesirable
i had rocks in my head and my joints hurt
no diagnosis. i couldn’t be alone
my friend wouldn’t leave me
we couldn’t not fight
i had no more strength
“i don’t want to be anywhere,” i kept saying
“love these days is just friendship plus physical attraction,”
said the badiou scholar, & this is why i had to stop talking to strangers
for so many years i told everybody everything
i didn’t whisper
i didn’t know if i agreed
Some labour is waged, some is not.
What do I need a name for?
Eutrophication, crab condos, decreases in upwelling. Water wars, toxic-ass phthalates, fires hotter and increasingly frequent. Designation of marine sanctuaries, increases in total evaporation, increasing latent heat.
just when i got some critical distance i found myself
running through a strange city in tears
trauma releasing itself during exercise
i reached an emotional tipping point
everything else felt like a dead end
i wished i would bump into someone i wanted to spend every day of the rest of my life with
but i just don’t think things work like that
i needed to be alone
i felt like a failure in my undesirability
these were some of the “personal” effects of “crisis”
the rise of industrial warfare fueled by petrol, oil, and lubricants
a mid-latitude jet stream gone haywire
saving the world became less important than being with friends
Capital had created the conditions for its own undoing.
A RELATIONSHIP IS AN ATTEMPT AT PROTECTING PROPERTY
Radiation is poisoned light.
Plastic fibers being found in 30% of herring and whiting caught in Denmark alone. Catch me in your cabin full of books yelling IF YOU WANT A WOMAN WHO IS COMFORTING AND DOCILE THAT IS NOT ME. Of course there is an easier nature. Of course there is an easier backdrop or a way to leave here. Milk slough dredge pond. All plastic gates all false jetty. All quagmire rodents / usurped the backdrop / toothpaste cigarette butts / scuttlebutt malfunction. Of course there is an easier meltdown than plastic. Of course there is an easier way to reject things: a trashcan in the sand, a loose caboose — missed the mark and took a picture instead. Plastic homeland. Another trash pile. Another bag. Another cute zombie. Another question of what to be for Halloween, what am I gonna throw away, how am I gonna keep it, where am I gonna buy it, what do I wanna show people— Fritos. Flavor Twists. Another seagull, another singing crane, another delay to make, another way to get paid, another way to inch out, another thing to worm out of. More plastic, more straws, more Doritos, more plastic bags, more dead marine life, more algae, more moss, another lump bedframe.
I took a square. I took a square and I went out of there. I took a square and I went out of there; I went home to Califronia. I took a square and I made a mattress of it. I didn't want to keep looking at jellyfish I walked around in circles like a stupid anteater. Another dumb way back. Another inch out. Another person to drag me out of the house. Another dumb tincture. Where more is a problem maybe we should be demanding utopia.
“There’s more than one way to break a window.”
signal a helicopter down
take the money and run
use fireworks as incendiary device
DON’T CALL THE POLICE. EVER.
Under sail there is no capital accumulation.
“Under sail, the crucial question was how long favorable or unfavorable conditions would hold.”
a promise is a way to be in the dark
bear with me